Good news from the physics master!

Hello again.


Well, not one of you bothered to give me any advice about whether or not I should drop physics (thanks a lot, guys, I feel loved. Really), but hey, it's not like I was gonna listen to you anyway. 


Well.......maybe just a bit. 


But anyway, I realized that I forgot to add one more CRUCIAL piece of information on my last school-related post ("Physics is driving me INSANE!"), so here it is: 


I'm thinking of going into Med School in the future, God-willing. 


I don't know exactly what it is I want to do for the rest of my life (that's a tough decision for a seventeen-turning-eighteen year-old to make, wouldn't you agree?) but I know that one of the things I'd like to do is to become a clinical physician. More specifically, I think I'd love to do Oncology (cancer) and its various symptoms, causes, treatments, etc. It sounds really interesting and rewarding, too. 


But that's my second choice. And it's my second choice only because of the fact that I like so many more things (namely, writing) that I want to go to college and find out if there's anything else for me besides Medicine. It's of course a very prestigious and rewarding field, but it might not be for me, or maybe it might, who knows. That's why you go to college - to discover your passions. 


So anyway, the only reason I'm making myself struggle through Honors Physics with a scraping B- is because of the fact that I'm going to take Pre-med in college, and the first requirement for a first year Pre-med student is one year of Physics with Lab. So I figured that if I dropped Physics altogether and don't even have a basic understanding of it in college, then I'll really struggle - this is nothing compared to that.


So yeah. 


What do you guys think? Any advice (other than the ones you've already offered, of course - NOT)?


But seriously, any advice whatsoever from any blogger out there - doesn't have to be a follower - but anyone who's passing through this blog on their way to some other more interesting place on the Internet and their eyes just happen upon this particular post? 


C'mon . . . anything at ALL? 

My heart belongs to you

A profoundly romantic and deeply poignant song sung by the great New Zealand singer Hayley Westenra. She has a beautiful voice, listen to this song here. Just wanted to share the lyrics with you guys: 


Through the window of my soul
All the secrets that I hold
Will be yours to share for always, always

Like a whisper in the wind
The gentle breeze touches my skin
And I know you?re with me always, always

I can feel it in the air
The fire that we share
Can only come from deep within
It's a light that burns so bright
It guides you through the night
And leads you to me
So find your way back and -

Hold me, touch me
Let the love come rushing through me
I'm yours with every breath I take
forever and ever

Hold on, to love
cause deep down
That's what we're made of
Never let go for my heart's sake
Cause my heart belongs to you

I lie awake to hear you breathe
Only you can feel the need
That builds and burns so deep inside me, inside me

As the moon lights up the sky
There's a thousand reasons why
My heart will only beat for you

You're the reason that I live
So now all I've got to give
I give it to you
Just don't fight the feeling

Hold me, touch me
Let the love come rushing through me
I'm yours with every breath I take
Forever and ever

Hold on, to love
cause deep down
That's what we're made of
Never let go for my heart's sake
cause my heart belongs to you

Don't give up, but just give in 
I will always be here waiting for you
Love will see us through . . . 

Hold me, touch me
Let the love come rushing through me
I'm yours with every breath I take
Forever and ever

Hold on, to love
Cause deep down
That's what we're made of
Never let go for my heart's sake
Cause my heart belongs to you

MY heart belongs to you....

Physics is driving me INSANE!

A list of the classes I'm taking for my last year of high school: 


AP Calculus A/B
Honors Physics
Phys. Ed - STUPIDEST class EVER (I could've taken AP Bio instead, why must we go through this in our last year of high school I honestly don't know)
AP European History (known as EHAP or AP Euro)
Anatomy/Physiology
Economics (mandatory for all seniors who haven't taken AP Macro or AP Micro yet)
AP English Literature and Composition (AP Lit)
AP Spanish II (a two year course, we take the AP Exam at the end of the second year)


Out of ALL of my classes, physics, my only non-AP academic class, is the hardest for me. Every week I am trudging by, miserably failing my homework, but I don't want to drop down to regular Physics either because a) it's a stupid class and b) it'll mess up my whole schedule and won't leave me room for the classes I actually care about. 


I hate these kinds of situations when you love the teacher who teaches your class, but you hate his subject. Our teacher (we call him Mazz) is AWESOME and absolutely insane, but hey, that's what makes a great physics teacher, right? 


Right. 


But I am having a seriously hard time keeping up with what he's teaching, because Physics is a hard subject to understand conceptually, and Honors/AP Physics is EVEN harder. I understand AP CALC better than Physics, which I don't know if it's even possible or not because Physics (at least AP Physics) IS calculus. 


?????


Anyway, to get to the point of this whole rambling post (I do that a lot, by the way, rambling, I mean) last night, as I lay in bed with a SEARING headache, I seriously considered dropping Physics altogether. I mean, when I first thought of it like three weeks ago I immediately discarded the idea because I was like, "Well, I know I'd feel guilty in the end for having not learned the most fundamental science of all sciences." Seriously, Physics is the basis for everything; bio, chem, earth science, you name it. Which is why it took me this long to come to this realization: Physics is making my other grades (namely Calc) spiral down to F-land (the world will end when I fail an entire class. LITERALLY) and I really don't want that because I want college admission officers to look at my transcript and say, "Now there's a girl who can take four or five APs and handle them all swimmingly!" I want to maintain around the B+ to A+ zone, and I just can't do that with Physics taking up my energy, time, and concentration. 


So I'm thinking of dropping it, but I'll audit the class instead. Meaning that I'll still show up, do all the work, take the tests, but it won't appear on my transcript. Basically, it means that I'll be an invisible, non-existent student in that class who does all the work but it doesn't count on her transcript because it's not there as a class she's taking. I know some of you will be like, "But what's the point of that?" 


The point is, that I'll still be learning the stuff in that class (maybe) but if I don't do well on the tests/quizzes/homework (which I KNOW I won't - if I'm not even understanding the easy stuff, how will I understand the harder things to come?) it won't impact my overall GPA negatively. 


I currently have a 4.1 GPA right now (I think the highest GPA in our school is 4.5) so I DON'T want to lose my rank/standing in the first decile of my entire grade of about 400 students. 


Yeah. 


So, what do you guys think? Will it be worth it to continue struggling through Physics just to "learn" the subject (which I won't even, probably) or drop it and just audit? 


NEED ADVICE NOW!!! 

My baby sister

This is the only picture I'm going to post, because it's already my profile picture for my Google account so anyone can see it anyhow. 


So . . . (drum roll please) . . . here she is! 

This is when she was just born, my dad took a picture of her with his iPhone while she and my mom were still in the O.R. (she was a C-section) and the nurses had just swaddled her up in a hat and blankets. 


Ain't she just PRECIOUS? 


She and my mom were in the hospital for four days before they came home, and up until the fourth day, my parents just couldn't decide on a name for her, so we just called her Buchi (courtesy of my 8 year-old brother) which in our native tongue Bengali means flat. In Bengali, we don't use subjects very much, so the flat refers to her nose (which is assumed) so basically, we called her "flat-nosed" until we found a proper name for her. Ha. Ha. 


But don't worry, I named her something better than Buchi (notice that I wrote I - because really I did get to name her in the end, which was totally awesome, by the way. Makes you feel real special). Anyway, so I decided upon the Arabic name (because Muslims usually  give their kids Arabic names) Safiya; pronounced Sah-fee-yah, and it means sincere friend, which is a really nice meaning. 


And as of today, she is 48 days old. 

I HAVE FINALIZED MY LIST OF COLLEGES I'M APPLYING TO!!!!!

Come on, be more excited for me, won't you? I finalized my list of colleges, that I'm applying. That's a BIG step for a college bound high-school senior like me, wouldn't you agree? 


Eh, who cares about your opinion, because I don't (all right, that was a lie, I sorta kinda do - a little). 


After months and months (two or three, actually) of research and preparation, I've finally decided what colleges I want to apply to. Anyway, here are the lucky 15 in no particular order except alphabetical (yes, fifteen. I have no confidence whatsoever in my ability to get into a college, so I'm applying to as many as I'd want to attend): 


Barnard College in New York, NY - my home state!!!


Boston University in Boston, MA


Bryn Mawr College, in Bryn Mawr, PA - check out this GORGEOUS campus! (Click the link, people, I didn't put it there for nothin'). 


Columbia University in New York, NY - right across the street from Barnard, actually, if y'all didn't know. And yes, Barnard/Columbia students participate in the other college's classes/sports/clubs, etc, since they share funds. Now that's a cool system.


Cornell University in Ithaca, NY - another beautiful and lively campus. 


Drexel University in Philly, PA - have you noticed yet that I like nice campuses and/or big cities? If not, you have poor observation skills. Plus, they have a good medical program, I heard. 


Fordham University in Bronx, NY - close to home; I, unlike some other college-bound seniors, do want to come back home frequently because frankly I love my home, thank God. I feel bad for anyone who doesn't, because a good home environment is crucial in  building healthy life styles (and by that I mean mental health)


Lehigh University in Bethlehem, PA - kinda far from home, maybe six-hour drive? 


Macaulay Honors College in Brooklyn, NY - they give all their undergrads FREE tuition because they're so selective, so whoever gets in, hey, free ride for you if you attend! Plus, a Macbook Pro. Ain't that sweeeeeetttttt??? But that's obviously not why I want to attend; they have the programs I want to do, plus the NYC environment is always a plus factor


Mount Holyoke College in South Hadley, MA - they have a horse stables!!! Check it out! 


New York University don't even need to state this address unless I'm applying to the one in Spain or Abu Dhabi, but obviously I'm not, soo........


Sarah Lawrence College in Bronxville, NY - again, another one close to home, hooray


State University of New York (SUNY) at Binghamton - nice tuition, competive school


(SUNY) Stony Brook University - ugh, I hate the Long Island expressway, but there's a train station right next to the campus, and it's right near the city, again, that's a huge plus


Syracuse University - GREAT school for Communications/Media Arts/Journalism, which is what I probably would like to major in as of the moment. 


So, until further update, see ya! 


Wish me luck! :